I'm so Afraid

Well have been home over a week and if everything was going to plan I would have started cutting down on my Requip.

Have I started NO.

WHY?

Because to be truthful I feel scared of trying. I don't feel I have any back up, my next appointment with the Neurologist is in January.

The Dr that has seen me through thick and thin has retired, and as I have had to change surgeries I have no idea if at this practice there is anyone who has any idea about Parkinson's.

I know I keep on about a Parkinson's nurse but I would feel more confident if I could have a nurse to turn to.

So Blow it I will stay with the pills I am taking who cares if I gamble away my children’s inheritance, what does it matter if I stay up all night, who gives a monkey anyway.

I can forget about getting stiff, starting to trip on the least little thing, and Parky coming back with a vengeance. This of course is what is hanging over me like the sword of Damocles.

We have been rubbing along quite nicely for quite a while. I have found that when he really bugs me it is as much my fault as his so how can I invite him to take over my life.

But most of all I am feeling very very let down, if I as a quite active PD person feel like this what chance is there for any one who needs more help than me???????????????????????????

Time to Reflect

My Eldest granddaughter Is 13 today, she will be a teenager and is now getting quite grown up. Over those years life has changed completely for most of my family.

The One person who would have loved to see her growing up was her granddad. When she was due he said to me I know you are excited to be having your first grandchild but you must understand that It is not mine so if I don't get as excited as you that's why.

The day she was born he went to the hospital and my daughter passed her over to him and said here you are Granddad and he was hooked. They bonded and for the rest of his life there was something very special between them.

I have so many photo's of them together, mostly cuddled up and often asleep. She called him Yanyan her version of granddad, and would help to look after him as he became more and more ill.

I think she was born for a purpose, as she helped to extend his life and I am sure he would have been very proud of the young lady she is turning into.

So Happy Birthday H from me Nanny and I am more than sure from Yanyan too.

It is on days like this Jim that I know you are missed but also know our lives were enriched by the wonderful memories that we have of your time as a very special YANYAN.

AWESOME

Well now that the washing has been done, Ironing too that’s a first.
Some of my photos have been sorted and downloaded.
Now I can now try and explain just how much I am delighted that I coped with the holiday and Parky.
He was never too far away and I defiantly found out that I couldn’t take any liberties as he would spoil my fun.
The sights I saw and the friendliness of the people will stay with me for as long as I have a memory.
Two sights that will instantly come to me when I hear China mentioned, are the great wall, if I thought it was magnificent I was proved more than right. The second of course were those awesome warriors.
I was very close to tears as I realised that I had made it after wanting to for such a long time. Later I was a bit surprised but pleased to hear that others had had the same experience.
I will do a first for me and try and put some photo’s in this blog, where I start who can say as I have taken over 500 photos.
I and am waiting for the first victim, I expect some one will be daft enough to say can I look at your photo’s. and then whoopiiiiiii.

I did miss Dad when I got back as I used to buy a book on the places that I visited for him, so that he could feel part of the trip. I bought one of the warriors signed by the farmer who found them, he is only there now for a few hours a day. No photos are allowed he does not like his picture taken. Do you think I am a bit cynical when I wonder if they interchange farmers?
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Fish and Chips

Had to do it, had to have something English and no chopsticks.
We have had some excellent food but somehow waiting for the food to be spun round on the lazy suzy can begin to get to you.
Especially when every thing seems to be put on on the opposite side of the table to you.
I have had a go at chopsticks but I don't think Parky was at home with it. There were defiantly a few moments when he showed his hand.
Not quite home yet, I am staying close to the airport, sat in the restaurant listening to Elton John.
Can't wait to load my photos
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Going Home

We are sitting in the hotel lounge ready to go home, every one aware of the long flight ahead and wishing that we could be transported direct to our homes.
It has been the trip of a life time, so many sights and the friendliest people. We have been treated like an oddity with lots of giggles and people getting close enough to have there photo taken with us. Of course we loved it and posed when ever we could. I wonder how many Chinese albums have been ruined with my photo
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Nearly Over

I am sat in my hotel room in Beijing. This is my last night in China and I have enjoyed every thing we have done.
We had a bit of a hick up when leaving Beijing to join the cruise, the weather changed and it seemed that we were going to be stuck at the airport as every thing came to a holt as it thundered and lightened.
We had already had our flight changed because of the weather, so I think we were expecting the worst.
We were loaded on to the plane and there we stayed for the next five and a half hours.
My seat was very close to the toilet so every one in the world came past me.
Things got a bit excited from time to time and some passengers elected to leave the plane of course this didn't help as cases had to be unloaded which meant more people got irate.
To cut a long story short we finally flew, got to the boat a day late.

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River Cruise - Here I come....

Today we are having an unexpected break. The flight that we should have taken has been cancelled so we fly later today to go on the cruise.
This morning the group splits in two, one lot heading home and the second has lots more travelling to do (that's me yippee)
My group should have been away from the hotel at something like 4 o clock this morning much to the delight of the other group.
Instead it was us that waved them off, shame
So I will be able to recharge my batteries and keep Parky out of sight.
Do you think I could pack him in some one else's case, now that's a thought.